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THE YOUNG AND THE LIBERAL
Jan 28th, 2002 by Clark Humphrey

SURVEY SAYS: More college students are “politically liberal” these days than at any time since the end of the Vietnam draft.

My first reaction: What will certain aging-boomer profs of my acquaintance do for fun anymore, if they can’t stand around demeaningly stereotyping everyone younger than themselves as right-wing hicks?

SOMETHING SO FUNNY, I wish I'd written it
Jan 23rd, 2002 by Clark Humphrey

“The Geek Hierarchy!”

WE'RE #1! WE'RE #1! WE'RE #1!
Nov 27th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

A British-based condom manufacturer has issued a survey which claims Americans have a lot more sex on the average, with more partners, and starting at an earlier age, than folk in Britain, Germany, Japan, and 24 other major industrial countries.

What this might mean:

  • Despite 20 years of the Religious Right’s anti-sex tirades (or maybe at least partly because of them), U-S-of-A-ers are just as buggery-obsessed as ever.
  • The Muslim fundamentalists, and other overseas moralists, are right to fear the global reach of American corporate-pop culture. As countless staid Catholic and Mormon parents in this country already know, there’s nothing to get kids to challenge tired authority systems quite like the promise of nookie. Especially when it’s seen in the context of a whole American-export cultural shtick of sugar drinks, rock n’ roll, blue jeans, the open road, big cars, etc.
  • This era of U.S. supremacy in the quantity (if not necessaarily quality) of coitus coincides with U.S. supremacy (for better or for worse) in military and economic power. This puts the lie to the Right’s claims that the non-repression of lust would turn us into a weak and vulnerable nation.
  • Indeed, it might justify the rival claim, made by followers of Tantric yoga and of the late psychologist Wilhelm Reich, that a healthy sex life is a sign of, and contributor to, general personal vitality and social energy.
  • Of course, more sex isn’t always better sex. Included in the survey’s average of 124 matings per year per American must be plenty of awkward adolescent experiments, unsatisfying marital acts, abusive relationships, lonely hooker dalliances, premature ejaculations, preorgasmic women, unwanted conceptions, and unimaginative fantasies. The continued prosperity of sex-ed guidebooks and videos shows that the most isn’t always the best.
  • Porn doesn’t necessarily lead to promiscuity–or to monogamous vitality either. The least-sexually-active country in the survey is Japan, a place teeming with strip joints and raunchy adult comic books.
  • These averages, if true, are still just averages. Please don’t feel anxious or depressed if you’re currently not getting any. And don’t stay in a lousy relationship just out of the fear of involuntary chastity.

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TV IS US
Nov 16th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

WHAT GILLIGAN’S ISLAND AND STAR TREK have to say about America’s sense of its place in the world.

CULTURE OF LAW
Oct 16th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

JAMES CARROLL WRITES: ” What if the catastrophe of Sept. 11 resulted, over the long term, in recognitions and initiatives that made America–and the world–a far better place… A turning point at which the main mode of resolving world conflict shifted away from the culture of war and toward the culture of law.”

THINGS I LOVE ABOUT AMERICA
Oct 14th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

As promised a couple weeks back, here is my preliminary list of some of what I love about this nation of ours. Thanks for your emailed suggestions; more are quite welcome.)

  • Corn dogs, and the proud people who make and serve them.
  • 217 cable channels, at least 10 of which are showing the same dumb movie at any given time.
  • Upbeat/consensual pornos in every known fetish.
  • Urban intersections with a Starbucks on every corner.
  • Suburban intersections with a 7-Eleven on every corner.
  • September issues of Vogue thicker than the models.
  • Fabulous babes coast to coast, many of whom have powerful careers.
  • Boys happily puking into bushes at Florida Spring Break.
  • Dr. Seuss, Mary Engelbreit, Charles Schulz, James Thurber, R. Crumb, Chris Ware, and Dan Clowes.
  • Fudge-banana swirl ice cream.
  • Dodge Darts.
  • The Internet, MP3s, chat rooms, multi-user dungeons, and QuickTime movies.
  • Jack Benny, Laurel & Hardy, Harold Lloyd, Looney Tunes, and Corey Feldman.
  • The gum that goes squirt.
  • Novelty stores with chocolate nipples and penis candles.
  • The sports-book room at the Cal-Neva casino in Reno.
  • The films of Russ Meyer and John Waters.
  • The long lonesome highway, and the proud truckers and tourists who traverse it every day.
  • Ann-Margaret, Betty Page, Mae West, Willa Cather, Beverly Cleary, Ella Grasso, Susan B. Anthony, Marilyn Chambers, and Jessamyn West.
  • Sleazy detective magazines, “true crime” books, film noir.
  • The Brooklyn Bridge, the Gateway Arch, the Brown Derby, and the Corn Palace.
  • Anyone can grow up to become a corrupt politician or a sneak-thief business executive.
  • Summer in Anchorage, winter in Honolulu, autumn in New England, and spring in Seattle.
  • Old Faithful, the Mammoth Caves, Monument Valley, and the Trees of Mystery.
  • Dollywood, Opryland, Wisconsin Dells, Wall Drug, Enchanted Village, and the Bible theme parks of Florida.
  • All-you-can-eat buffets and bottomless cups of coffee.
  • BBQ beef, Cajun catfish, smoked salmon, chicken nuggets, and pork rinds.
  • Potato chips, ice cream cones, Hostess Sno-Balls, and non-dairy creamer.
  • Crossword puzzles.
  • Gene Rayburn, Betty White, Garry Moore, Bill Cullen, and Charles Nelson Reilly.
  • David Letterman, Johnny Carson, Conan O’Brien, Jon Stewart, Fred Allen, Ricki Lake, Sandy Hill, and Rosie O’Donnell.
  • Indie motels with fantastical neon signs.
  • Butter-Lite flavor microwave popcorn.
  • No-fault divorce.
  • Retractable-roof stadia.
  • Millions of assorted cults (religious, celebrity, musical, medical, investment, etc. etc.).
  • Muddy Waters, Ethel Waters, and Barbara Walters.
  • Bix Beiderbecke, Dizzy Gillespie, the Art Ensemble of Chicago, Wayne Horvitz, and Raymond Scott.
  • Julie London, Vikki Carr, the Andrews Sisters, the Mills Brothers, Motown, Phil Spector, the Ventures, the Ramones, the B-52s, and the Young Fresh Fellows.
  • Wine bars, sports bars, pickup bars, pickup trucks, monster trucks, semi rigs, and fork lifts.
  • Aaron Copland, Henry Partch, Charles Ives, Frank Zappa, and the Residents.
  • Johnny Cash, Bob Wills, Tammy Wynette, Chet Atkins, Duane Eddy, Tex Ritter, Hank Williams, Loretta Lynn, Buck Owens, Kitty Wells, and Homer & Jethro.
  • Pulp magazines, bodice-ripper paperbacks, and $100 collector’s editions of Walden.
  • The Big Mouth Billy Bass, the Kitchen Magician, the Pocket Fisherman, and the George Forman Grilling Machine.
  • Lou Piniella, “Louie Louie,” Louis Prima, Louis Jordan, Joe Louis, Tina Louise, and Louise Bourgeois.
  • Miss America, Miss December, miscagenation, and Ms. magazine.
  • Simon & Schuster, Simon & Garfunkel, and Simon & Simon.
  • Folks from all the rest of the world are here.
  • Quite a lot of the things I love about other countries are here too.

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CHOOSE YOUR CIVIC ROLE MODEL
Oct 8th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

The Mariners have just lost their last regular-season game as I write this, and enter the playoffs tied for the best regular season in baseball history (based on number of wins, not winning percentage).

As most of you know, I’m of the generation that came of age with the indelible image of the Ms as a lovable-loser team playing in a lovable-loser domed stadium in a lovable-loser city. Even Seattle’s attempts to become a Big League City were typically of a feebly predictable variety (e.g., taxpayer subsidies for chain-owned luxury shops downtown).

But the Century 21 Ms are different. They’re the Real Freakin’ Thing. I adore the team’s stunning success like nothing else; but still have a hard time comprehending it. It’s off the visible spectrum of good news, just as the terror attacks were far further off the visible spectrum of bad news.

The Ms’ spectacle provides as good an excuse as any to survey the cultural status of this once-remote port city on the occasion of its sesquicentennial.

IN THE ’90S, Seatle seemed on the verge of bigtime cultural-capital status; corresponding to the city’s approach toward bigtime business-power status.

But the movie and TV location work mostly moved to Vancouver; the “Seattle Music Scene” craze was successfully crushed by the major-label conglomerates; and the local web-content companies that had been on the seeming verge of displacing both print and audiovisual media giants have either died or been fiscally chastized into safer market niches.

While Seattle still hasn’t permanently muscled in on NY’s hold on publishing or LA’s hold on film production, we remain a hotbed for many DIY-level arts genres (contemporary dance, experimental music, indie rock, snowboarding apparel, comix).

The recent, and apparently now ending, tech-biz gold rush meant some creative-type folk found the chance to finance some of their dreams (restaurants, coffeehouses, shot-on-video movies, self-released CDs). Many others took tech-biz jobs in that hope, but found themselves too drained by the hours and stress.

The upside of the dot-com collapse is many writers, painters, musicians, etc. who’d found themselves stuck working 60-hour weeks in Redmond now have the time to resume their real work (and real-estate hyperinflation is slowing, so they might be able to keep their studios and practice spaces.) The bad news: Many of these people lost much of their savings in the stock collapse (particularly those who worked for stock options).

THE REST of the local economy now lies as fragile as the world economy to which it’s become ever more closely interconnected.

Boeing, once synonymous with both Seattle and U.S. industrial-export might, is turning (or was trying to turn before the recession) into a financier-oriented investment company whose holdings only incidentally include airplane factories, and whose execs live and work far away from any of its physical-stuff-making operations.

Microsoft and Starbucks, those companies everyone loves to hate, are still here, still increasing their world domination of their respective industries, and still making enemies while insisting on their innate goodness.

And Amazon.com, the company that persued Bigness at any cost, used the end of E-Z deficit financing as an excuse to can hundreds of Seattle workers and ship their jobs to lower-wage locales.

“GET BIG FAST” was the title of a book about Amazon, based on the now-discredited mantra justifying the high burn rate of money-pit dot-coms. Amazon’s strategy meshed nearly perfectly with the ongoing insecurities of a city elite forever fretting about Seattle’s stature, ever concocting jump-start schemes to make us (yes, I know I overuse the phrase, but so do they) World Class. World Class-ness means we get big new “arts” buildings but can’t keep our artists from getting evicted. It means we’ve got all this private wealth but (thanks to the anti-tax Republicans some of these wealthy ones support) we can’t house our homeless, feed our hungry, or relieve our exurban sprawl and our traffic jams.

But the phrase “Get Big Fast” also expresses the craving to get beyond juvenile frustration ASAP, to give birth to a company and have it immeidately be “grown up.” Only things don’t quite work that way in the real world, or even in the real corporate world.

Seattle still doesn’t know what it wants to be when it grows up. But it’s anxious to grow up, or rather to act like a gangly adolescent pretending to be grown up. And it always has been. Like that Here Comes the Brides theme song goes: “Like a beautiful child/Growing up green and wild.”

But the result, all too often, is like seeing the adult actors in Porky’s II walking around in their receding hairlines, pretending to be hormone-stricken teenagers pretending to be worldwise grownups.

IF WE CAN just all forget for a moment about Getting Big Fast, maybe we can start to really grow up.

The Mariners became a powerhouse mainly by de-emphasizing the big cheap home run (to the point of buildiing a stadium where they’d be tougher to achieve); instead focusing on doing the little things right and pulling together.

Exactly what this town needs.

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TO THOSE WHO SAY I'M NOT A PATRIOT
Sep 19th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

To Those Who Say I’m Not a Patriot

by guest columnist Eve Appleton

There was a famous Spanish animal expert who was quoted to say, “Man is the only animal to stumble over the same stone twice.”

Advocates of peace are patriots. Advocates of war are patriots. The argument is not one of patriotism. It’s of options.

Options, which in times of shock, pain and confusion are difficult to come by. During these times people are most vulnerable and most susceptible to propaganda. Most out of their reasoning minds.

In my day, now substantial years ago, I was a media queen. My voice could sell anything–product or concept. I engineered, wrote, produced, directed. News, entertainment, educational and commercial programming. I did whatever it took. And I could pump out the propaganda with a speed of force that left my bosses’ mouths agape. Straight to the heart and soul of the listening audience. I was a behavioral scientist in a field day of resources and a world of open receptive minds to play with.

Which is why I quit. I woke up one day to the realization I was feeding the people lies. Worse, they believed me. Even worse yet, they trusted me, acting on my words. Words, images and sounds meshed together with intent to manipulate behavioral response. To my benefit. The pay was handsome. The recognition thrilling. The demand growing.

I was dangerous. I was a hypocrite. And it suddenly became very difficult to look my children in the eye. So I quit. A decision I’ve not yet regretted. Doubt I ever will.

Film (including media broadcast formats) is considered the most prolific medium of manipulation. Its mastery is catagorized as an art. At it most basic function/application, it uses light–a very powerful and actually organic technology–to condition (or communicates with) the central nervous system through the optic nerves in our eyes. Its whole purpose is to manipulate sensory systems through varying patterns of light fluctuation which influence all sensory bodies to a programmed response. Like the sparkle of fire, which mesmerizes.

The difference is intent. Fire does not intend to mesmerize. It just does. Film intends to mesmerize. Media intends to mesmerize. When you get your target audience to respond as anticipated are you considered successful in the “Art.” Open any media text. This is what it will teach. You promptly learn there is no such thing as objective journalism.

I’m writing to you right now with intent to manipulate you. I openly admit it.

I’m trying to get people to think. Which is damn near impossible when they’re in a state of shock, pain and confusion. But, those of us who can. Who are more removed from the direct link to our most recent loss. We need to move out of our pain. Quickly. Because major decisions are being made in these days of confusion, which will affect all our lives for years to come. Decisions which are being made without the attention of the American people. Without giving measure of options. And while we find ourselves in a most vulnerable state.

No matter our pain, no matter our confusion, we need to stay alert. There’s something bigger then us at risk. There is an entire world’s future. And we are all responsible. This is very serious.

Every time I hear the word “war” I remember the Vietnam era. I feel caught in a past era’s nightmare. But this time, I have young adult children, male and female, who, based on my actions and the actions of my fellow Americans, could soon die.

And for what? A decision made in haste during a moment of shock and confusion? A decision made while we are out of our reasoning minds?

I don’t want my children to die. And I don’t want them to have to kill just to live. It’s not my right to ask this of them. Only they can make that decision. Let the people who are willing to die and kill go forward if they must; void of age discrimination, race discrimination, sex discrimination… That’s their right.

Let them go to the front lines. And, with them, the generals and politicians. Let them do the boot camp, carry the guns, shoot to kill. Something tells me the politicians just might protest.

My father was a career military man in the Strategic Air Command, the bulk of his career involving diplomatic and international services. Much of his work was classified. But the things he experienced we lived first hand, up close and personal, in our home. He was an officer, a colonel. It was said his career didn’t go further because he had a way of pissing off the generals. But they liked him by their side because they knew he was honest. Rare in the military.

He went to Vietnam as a volunteer. He reasoned it was his ability to afford one young person over there a return home chance at life. He felt it was the least he could do. He would grumble under his breath of the travesty of how the war was being run. Said at this rate the end of the war was nowhere in sight. The two biggest problems: Children being sent to do men’s jobs, and politicians running the war.

While he was there, he sent audio tapes from the front for our seventh-grade social studies class. He was very diplomatic. Careful not to say the wrong things. But we all felt it–a sober fear.

He also sent my mom audio tapes. Sometimes we could hear explosions and sirens and screams in the background. He assured us he was nowhere dangerous, far from the enemy front. Then he would chuckle and say he was too mean to die.

He was the one who told me the generals and politicians were never present at the front line. They hid behind the shield of their ranks, claiming themselves too important to be risked. He also said the news reporters never went to the front line, but instead sat at the bars and got drunk, taking their news feeds from the military propagandists. He said they had no idea what was really happening. We were being crucified. He was a career man who believed in his country. He was a devout patriot. He also knew from an eye witness point of view, truth from lie.

My father went to the front line. In fact he crossed the front line on many a mission which required, in his words, “the experience of an officer.” And in doing so, he was exposed to Agent Orange. We didn’t find out till his death. His files conveniently came up missing shortly thereafter. Files I’d read personally because I’d been named executrix of his health and estate. The government was afraid I’d sue and knew I had an ironclad case. It was laid out pretty clearly in those files. But I didn’t want to sue. I just wanted to know why they didn’t let us know sooner, so we could have helped him in his life. There’s nothing to be done after death.

What kind of parents are we if we ask our children to go to war, if not the worst kind? And please, don’t ask me to bless a war sanction and my children’s death for a boost to our economy. There are other ways to do that. And in fact, war doesn’t boost our economy. It leaves generations to come in dysfunction–even with all their body parts attached.

Call me selfish if you must, but I’m fighting for my children’s lives. I would consider myself a horrible mother if I did anything less. And I clearly understand the responsibility before me. I won’t ask my children to kill. I certainly won’t ask them to die. I have no more right to do this then ask children I don’t even know, to kill and die.

But I will ask them to help find and support clear reasoning, educated decisions, and alternative solutions. To start thinking. Justice for those we have lost does not have to be accompanied by more innocent bloodshed. Our children are innocent. If we can’t see this, we are obviously not in our reasoning minds.

What our current administration is asking us to do is not a TV show. It’s very real. The Vietnam War lasted what, ten years? More? If you have a child who is thirteen right now, in five years this child will be eligible for War. (Oh whoopie! He–or she–can die looking for some slimey crazed mad man. Oh goodie!)

And if we are successful in keeping the war off our home land, we can say bye bye to any current luxuries. Probably even our houses. We’ll be holding the jobs our children held while here. We’ll be living on poor wages–those of us lucky enough to hold jobs. Our savings will be depleted, as our industries shut down in the name of wartime crisis. As will our hearts, as our children are shipped home in body bags–or worse, as shellshocked, limbless vegetables.

Unless, of course, the nuclear bombs are deployed. In which case, there’ll be nothing for any of us because we’ll all be maimed, suffering slow death, or just plain dead.

So what do we do?

Options! Start thinking of options.

Our current option is unacceptable. We are intelligent, sophisticated, capable people who represent fairness, justice, liberty, freedom and equal rights. It’s an ideal which only we can make into a reality.

And no one ever said it would be easy. Retaliation is easy. Getting to the truth is more difficult. We need time to discern the information before we run off and start lynching. Lynching is our past. It doesn’t have to be our future. We don’t need to stumble again over this stone. It’s time we learn by doing something new. Something smart, conscious and yes, futuristic. If we don’t, we’ll only ever know war.

Justice doesn’t have to be accompanied by bloodshed. Nor will it be justice if we get only some, or possibly the wrong offenders.

And while we may have a damn good idea of one or some responsible, please don’t think I’m buying this was the act of a lone madman and a posse crew. That’s just ridiculous. Even Kissinger said that pulling off an attack of this sort required extensive resources. This guy may be rich, but clearances alone for what just happened suggest far more complicity. We need to get to the bottom of this.

It’s important to our future to know the truth. We need to account for all responsibility. We’re not going to be any more safe with a quick fix-it mobbing and a bunch of young dead lives. We’re just going to be more pathetic; or we’ll be nuclear waste.

In my in-box right now are several emails–hate mails–that, when compared to the 34 “non-hate” mails, don’t give a frame of reference to 85 percent of the American people wanting war. But our TVs keep telling us we want war. Our leaders urge us to raise flags. To wear them on our heads. Put them on our cars. We assume it to mean we support America. Our leaders are interpreting it as a vote for war. Where is the voice of the 34-vs.-2 emails?

Also, why is there an assumption that because I advocate peace, clarity and conscious action, I’m not a patriot? Peace is not a statement of anti-patriotism. It is a plea of intelligence. My resistance to flag waving right now, is not a negative statement toward my country, but toward the media blitz which seeks ratings and recognition and deep pockets without an ethical consciousness.

People are more divided right now then I’ve seen them in a long time. They are only under a symbolic media illusion of being united. But if you get into the streets, or listen for a moment to the ones who’ve been seeking peaceful solution; if you were to experience the hate mail and threats and name calling they have had to endure; you’d know there is an anger raging through the streets of America, dividing neighbor against neighbor, which is far more terrifying then any new advent of airplane bomb.

Our world has been glued to its TV sets, programmed by people they don’t even know. Unknown people they are empowering with their trust. Some of us have spent our time away from the TV sets–reaching out to sources of all kinds and status, looking for answers which may provide alternative solutions.

We have been thinking. Mostly because we are so very aware of how much there is to lose. And how precious this life really is. This does not sound anti-patriotic to me. It sounds smart. And caring. And compassionate. And concerned. And serious.

As you pray to your god tonight, or meditate in compassion, ask your god or your self to help us all start thinking. Of options; of solutions geared toward truth. Solutions which will show the world we are not barbarians like those who have terrorized us, but rather, intelligent, conscious, well reasoned and greatly empowered with the strength of clarity.

We are a great nation. And yes we are young. Maybe. And I do believe it possible. We the young can show this old world, old dogs aside, we know how to learn new tricks. We can reverse the sins of our fathers. We can successfully not trip over the same stone twice.

Please do not send children to war; world into hardship; hatred toward neighbor. Start thinking. Start writing. Start talking and advocating other ways. We can all do this together. Probably better then we can do any war. Peace for one and all.

Love

Eve

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WHO DO YOU HATE?
Sep 18th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

IT’S A LONG ENTRY TODAY, and it starts with a question:

WHAT WILL BECOME of “alternative” culture? Until last Tuesday, the prospect of a recession seemed to mean we could all go back to being grumpy worrywarts, without all that new-economy exuberance getting in the way. But now along comes war-lust, and the potential revival of censorship and repression of dissent, not to mention changes in the whole social zietgeist.

Remember, WWII changed American culture even before the U.S. military got into it. In came the aggressive comedy of Abbott & Costello and Bugs Bunny. Out went the lighter antics of W.C. Fields, Laurel & Hardy, and the Marx Brothers.

Even before the hijackings, there’d been talk for a year or two among the culture pundits of a “new sincerity,” spread among (or at least corporately targeted at) a new generation grown weary of cynicism and distanced irony. Among the trend’s purported examples: Dawson’s Creek, Lilith Fair, the WTO protests, Martha Stewart, Oprah, bottled water (as an alternative to fizzy drinks), the new soft-R&B divas, and those achingly cloying boy bands. When Tablet launched, one year ago next week, it sold itself as the sincere, prosocial, community-supportive alternative to what its creators claimed was The Stranger’s arrogance and irrelevance.

Will the new social and economic shudders further this trend? Quite possibly. Even among the potential opponents of a potential new war, the schtick’s gonna have to be about working together and working hard.

And will the culture of individual excess (the rich person’s equivalent to hip irony) become seen as not merely wasteful but unpatriotic?

I’ll tell you what I don’t want to see, and that’s a “Return to the Spirit of the Sixties.” A lot of tactics simply didn’t work then and won’t work now. Counterculture separatism, square-bashing, drug-assisted pomposity, and general rudeness won’t do anything except make a few self-promoters famous.

Indeed: Separatism, the belief that one (and perhaps one’s close circle of compatriats) constitute some superior species, is one of the poisonous ideas terrorist leaders always exploit.

WHICH BRINGS US to our next sermon topic: Who do YOU hate?

No, I’m not talking about who those people out in bad old Mainstream America hate.

I’m not talking about who your parents hate.

I’m not talking about who the guy next to you hates.

I’m talking about you. Yes, you.

It’s easy for members of one or another “alternative” social niche to admit how wrong it is to hate ethnic minorities, gays, women, and the poor.

But what about your own attitudes toward those who are different from you?

Do you ever sneer with disdain at people who eat meat, or at people who don’t smoke pot?

Do you dehumanize heterosexuals, men, suburbanites, hippies, bimbos, southerners, mall shoppers, tourists, headbangers, lawyers, bureaucrats, business executives, polyester wearers, pina colada drinkers, people who listen to non-NPR radio stations, or people who shop at non-co-op grocery stores?

Then you’re just being human. You’re not a superior species to the rest of homo sapiens; nobody is. But a lot of people like to imagine they are. Some use religion, nationalism, ethnicity, or caste as their excuse. Others use fashion sense, arcane knowledge, or claims of higher “enlightenment.”

The real enlightened ones aren’t the ones who boast of their separateness from humanity, but the ones who realize their connection to humanity, to the web of life.

The illusion of separateness is especially prevalent in times of war-lust. Every warring nation propagandizes that it’s the real greatest nation on earth, and that those opposing nations are vermin needing to be eradicated or heathen needing to be “civilized.”

That’s why a Unabomber can callously take lives and then claim it’s all to make a better world. That’s why combatants in Belfast can aim guns on schoolgirls. That’s why a handful of true believers, who may or may not be connected to similar cells elsewhere in the world, can devote their lives toward a mega-scale suicide bombing.

We need no more of that.

What we need, now more than ever, is to reconnect, to touch.

Build movements. Get closer to your neighborhood, your community. Go see bands, concerts, plays—anything that’s live. Take a class. Go somewhere you’ve never been. Make love as often as possible (safely and consensually). If you’ve got kids, hug them early and often. Have a good meal, a good drink, and/or a good laugh. Get involved in something greater than mere money and power.

Call it the new sincerity if you wish. Or just call it the best way to keep our species going, by breaking down some of the barriers between people and between cultures.

9/11 PART 41 (AUDEN ON LOVE AND WAR)
Sep 17th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

AN EMAIL CORRESPONDENT suggested I look up September 1, 1939, a poem by W.H. Auden about the reactions he witnessed in NYC to the outbreak of WWII in Europe:

“All I have is a voice

To undo the folded lie,

The romantic lie in the brain

Of the sensual man-in-the-street

And the lie of Authority

Whose buildings grope the sky:

There is no such thing as the State

And no one exists alone;

Hunger allows no choice

To the citizen or the police;

We must love one another or die.”

WHICH LOSS IS WORSE?
Sep 1st, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

Which Loss Is Worse?

by guest columnist Jenniffer Velasco

Everyone has losses, each one unique. It can make one stronger, or it can make one a victim.

For me, it’s the feeling that something is missing permanently.

It’s too difficult to re-examine the overwhelming losses in my life. I’m too busy right now, creating a life from pure dreams and fantasy.

So I leave journal-like writings that ache and bleed… still.

I tried to write in the Arboretum’s Japanese garden, but it was so zen; too peaceful, too calm. I ended up forgetting about loss; pretending I was a coy fish.

I attempted to write about loss in a coffee shop, but it would be too intense to cry in public. I’m so focused on plans, schemes, schmooze, booze, friends, art, and, oh yeah, life.

My apartment is open and friendly; yet the space where I sleep celebrates my sacred losses. One is of my failure to see my grandma, who raised me and protected me from the bad men. The other is the loss of being a mother.

In my bedroom, I’ve placed a painting of my grandmother Lola, half-young and half-old, and a painting of myself holding a child in my arms before giving him up for adoption at age 17.

EXCERPTS FROM OLD JOURNALS:

Aug. 28, 1993

Brandyn:

It’s been a month since I last held you. It had been so difficult that day. You looked so beautiful. How could anyone with a heart give you up without feeling?

But in my tears and heartbreak, I still put your well-being first. This is what matters to me: That I’ll know for sure you’ll be OK and well taken care of. In my ease of giving you up, I am giving up the chance to know or feel love for you. Your love will be for other parents.

I’ve been through a lot with you. You were born three and a half months before your time. I wanted to keep you. I fell in love and saw you in the prenatal hospital often, holding you for hours at a time, just enjoying my few moments.

It hurts so much to love you, knowing I’m going to lose you in a matter of time.

But I’ll tell you this: I was never afraid to love.

  • Sept. 7, 1998

    This month has been testing.

    I’ve been working hard, trying to save money for a ticket to the Phillipines. My mission was to see Lola (a Filipino word for “Grandma”). She is my mom’s mom.

    I’ve been through an attempted muging for $400, the only way to buy a plane ticket. My Washington ID has been lost.

    I waited for six hours with my dad, racing against time. The clock ticked away. I fought the passport agency–crying, yelling, hating everyone. I ended up having to drive to my old high school to get my freshman records, just to verify that I’m an American, I’ve lived here all my life.

    In all this, I was thinking only of Lola. I needed to see those kind eyes of hers just one more time. I felt sick inside with fire and anxiety; trying to cut the red tape.

    I finally relaxed, thinking all the proper papers are in order. I was finally going to see Lola.

    As I was cleaning my closet, my mother called from New York, telling me Lola was dead.

  • I HAD KNOWN the love of my Lola. The fried rice with eggs in the morning, Sleeping next to her at night, arguing–me in broken Tagalog, her in her brittle English. She died thinking of me.

    But with my child, I felt a slower grieving. I was too young and naive about my love for him; waiting for the hope the he’d look for me to explain how much I’ve wept for him. Every Christmas, every birthday, every Mother’s Day, every baby I see reminds me of my life without him.

    The sun is coming up. It’s Thursday, I think. Many pains have carved my existence; yet I don’t identify with them.

    I am at this moment, not by what I’ve lost but by what I’ve gained.

    THE 'RIGHT' SIDE OF THE BED?
    Jul 23rd, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

    A research study publicized in July claimed conservative Republicans have worse dreams than persons of other political persuasions.

    Maybe it’s due to the ol’ “angry white male” syndrome, in which rabid-right commentators try to whip up their secular congregations into all number of extreme fears (including but not limited to fears of women, gays, blacks, English professors, big cities and the people who live in them, civil servants, immigrants, nasty music, and any politician who doesn’t toe the GOP party line).

    Or maybe the wealthy individuals who comprise the Right’s real beneficiary caste have more stress-related nightmares due to their supposedly more complicated lives.

    Whatever the cause for this situation (if it even really exists), it’s a cool excuse to fantasize about what dreams and/or nightmares might typically befall humans of various political persuasions:

    • The pro-business Democrat: Dreams of conviving over fine food and beverges at a $1,000-a-plate fundraiser. Speakers wax elequently about why mergers are good for consumers, clearcuts are good for the environment, and media conglomerates are the greatest defenders of free speech.During the subsequent meet-‘n’-greet, she sparkingly chats up with many well-dressed, beautiful, affluent people. She and they jointly pooh-pooh the idea that the Democrats had forgotten any past commitments; why, the party’s at the forefront of defending the rights of affluent women, affluent gays, affluent blacks, and affluent left-handed people. They also discuss the best foreign countries for importing well-hung houseboys.

      This person’s nightmare: That someone might start taking that line about We The People seriously.

    • The law-and-order Republican: Dreams of standing tall, tough, and proud. His whiskey gut is clad by a tan microfiber suit; his fingers are clad in three or four gold rings. He’s at the lectern of his beautiful church in his beautiful gated suburb. He’s exhorting his congregation of The Select to remain steadfast in the knowledge of their special status with God, as exemplified by their abundant material blessings.At this same time, his strong-but-submissive wife is taking off her multiple platinum necklaces and earrings. She’s driving toward the main gates of the prison camp that used to be the central city, to perform her volunteer mission work. Her sermon has a Pentacostal aesthetic but a classic Anglican theology—that her charges are doomed sinners, who can only attain a blessed afterlife by selflessly working themselves to death here on earth.

      This person’s nightmare: That someone might start taking that line about not serving both God and Mammon seriously.

    • The militia member: Dreams of looking out stoically over a decimated landscape from the safe vantage point of his compound. Wrathful disasters have destroyed all cities and crushed all governments; but he, his comrades-in-arms, and their multiple wives have survived to build a new world built upon the law of the gun.This person’s nightmare: That nothing sufficiently disastrous ever happens.
    • The still-believing socialist: Dreams of a society still dominated by heavy industry (coal mining, iron smelting) and mass agriculture; as maintained by a cadre of hearty, proud workers who fully share in the fruits of their labors.Our dreamer, however, doesn’t have to break his back at such toil. He’s on the planning team, crunching the numbers and tweaking the blueprints for ever larger and more efficient factories to produce improved industrial implements.

      This person’s nightmare: That too many workers might not want to remain workers.

    • The anarchist: Dreams of a peaceful and harmonious life in a communitarian village, in which most work is performed for barter and the private accumulation of wealth is severely restricted. All TV stations have long ago been signed off; the Fortune 500 companies have all been dismantled; and all sorts of voluntary associations are either mandatory or close enough.Our dreamer works in the local Hemp Research Center, testing new organic strains of the plant that has become the mainstay of the world economy. The results of his diligent research are freely shared with other centers developing new varieties of hemp clothing fabrics, hemp motor-scooter fuel, hemp construction plastics, hemp breakfast cereal, hemp guitar strings, hemp furniture, hemp wine, hemp dog food, hemp cologne, hemp bicycle helmets, hemp condoms, etc. etc.

      This person’s nightmare: Either a hemp boll weevil or the threat that someone, someday, might actually want to live any differently.

    • The eco-militant: Dreams of awakening to a perfect morning in a perfect world reclaimed by nature, following some unspecified event that had removed most of the earth’s human population. The trees gently bend in a warm breeze; the birds chirp; the whales and dolphins cavort; the minks and mollusks scamper freely. Our dreamer is among the few remaining humans, who spend their days fixing the ecosystem damaged by their insensitive forebearers. Her day will be spent tending an organic garden, on the reclaimed site of a former strip mall.This person’s nightmare: That the few remaining humans might not include her.
    • The techno-Libertarian: Dreams of a 21st-century version of the old Greek philosophers’ salons, in which men of social standing and property (the only full citizens in that old “democracy”) civilly debated the issues of the day while enjoying the finest wine, food, and women (or boys).In the modern dream incarnation, this soiree takes place in the daylight basement of a $3 million beachfront “cabin.” During all-night rounds of networked shoot-’em-up computer games, various members of the Cardmember Caste (all bearing the platinum credit cards required for citizenship) discuss new router technologies, the latest plans to privatize the Supreme Court, and other weighty topics. Players who temporarily tire of this routine can enjoy a glass of wine, a snort of coke, or a blow job; all expertly served up by contract-servants from the Permatemp Caste.

      This person’s nightmare: Finding himself in the Permatemp Caste.

    TEACHERS PETTING
    Jul 18th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

    As a former Marysville middle-school boy, I paid particular attention to the case of a teacher lady who lived in Marysville (but worked in nearby Mukilteo).

    Second-grade teacher Susan Lemery, 37, was arrested in late June. She was charged with having sex with one 14-year-old boy and fondling another. Both alleged partners are friends of her own teenage son.

    I can assure you I had no specific private fantasies about any of my instructors during my years of tender budding manhood. But it’s easy to imagine that I could have, given the right circumstances and the right instructor. Cross-generational desire (in both directions, and among all gender-persuasions) is one of the perfectly natural sexual occurrances. Countless adolescents have dreamed of the experienced awakener who would gently guide them toward intimate awakening. Countless grownups have yearned for the fresh-faced plaything who would help them recapture their lost youth.

    But once reality sets in, there are all sorts of power and control games going on; particularly if the boy or girl is emotionally malleable and manipulable (as so many boys and girls that age are).

    Even harsher power and control games begin once a relationship of this sort becomes public knowledge, as a community’s well-meaning adults rush in to proclaim their outrage and cry for strict punishment and social control mechanisms to prevent any future such abuses of power.

    And thus it will always be in America, unless by some miracle American adults learn to be more grown up.

    By that, I mean that we collectively accept that all these desires exist and learn to exist with them; concocting wholesome and supportive ways for these fantasies to be addressed, without turning any real-life kids into commodities or stunting their emotional growth.

    And no, I don’t know what that would be. But it would start with the acceptance and understanding of human nature, not its inhibition or suppression.

    A DARKER SHADE OF PALE
    May 9th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

    I CONTINUE TO RECEIVE letters and emails asking me to stop using the word “yuppie” in the online column.

    So, at least for today, I’ll use a different term to describe the only people Seattle’s political and media elites care about–the Monoculture.

    In the Monoculture aesthetic, everyone who lives in Seattle (or at least everyone who deserves to live here) is affluent, childless, in an office-type profession, educated yet decidedly non-intellectual, “culturally aware” yet relentlessly middlebrow, “active in the community” yet devoutly pro-business, a devout attender of high-volume, high-priced restaurants, and a strong supporter of “diversity” just as long as everybody looks and behaves identically blandly.

    Entire retail empires, publications, and political campaigns are built on this dubious premise.

    And now, there’s a slick free monthly, Colors NW, showing that you don’t have to be of pale Euro descent to be part of the Monoculture.

    The magazine’s second issue, out now, has a Bon Marche ad on the back (why, by the way, doesn’t the Bon still have a real website?), smaller inside ads for mortgage consultants and liposuction clinics, and features within about the Film Festival, a dot-com executive, and pricey restaurants.

    The Bon model is Asian American. The liposuction ad’s before-and-after model and the dot-com exec are both African American. The restaurant reviews hype “upscale soul food” and “down home Japanese.” Otherwise, they’re hard to distinguish from similar features in Monoculture-obsessed media.

    “Yeah,” you might be saying if you’ve already read the mag, “but what about the cover story on the history of Asian American political activism in Seattle? Or the profile of Samoan hiphop DJ Kutfather? Or the little back-page essay by a Seattle U student advisor on the identity confusion resulting from her own half-white, half-Filipino heritage?”

    Yes, the mag has all those things. But these three pieces depict their subjects as ideal citizens of Seattle-The-Good. Even the Asian-activism story is written as a tale of earnest progressives striving to rectify wrongs that all nice Reagan Democrats can agree are wrong (racist ad images, for example).

    And in the context of the magazine’s more consumerist material, the profiled activists get the same overall aura you see in corporate-sponsored Martin Luther King Day ads. That is, they become seen as out-of-the-box-thinkin’ political entrepreneurs, the social-justice equivalents of “new economy” CEOs.

    But that’s not necessarily all that bad. After all, there’s something to be said for the idea that ethnic striving oughta be about making it, succeeding in the melting-pot and taking pride in that success.

    Even if it means conforming to the white-dominated zeitgeist of the Monoculture, and not to the “true diversity” zeitgeist of white lefties such as myself.

    IN OTHER NEWS:A tiny news brief reveals what critics of “get tuff” welfare policies have long claimed–that draconian aid regulations cost more in paperwork and enforcement costs than they save in denied benefits.

    NEXT:“The arts” as an economic development scheme.

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    SEDATED
    Apr 18th, 2001 by Clark Humphrey

    cd cover THE DEMISE OF PUNK PIONEER JOEY RAMONE, of lymphoma at age 49, struck me more than that of Elvis Presley (at an even younger age).

    Not just because, unlike Presley, I’d actually seen the Ramones live several times, but because of their respective places in the advancement of rock as an art form.

    Presley hadn’t been the first white white singer to copy a hard R&B style. But he was the first to make a huge business from it. The process of his schtick was to bleach the blackness out of black music, to make it just acceptable enough for white consumption while still being “wicked” enough to draw prudes’ ire.

    When that territory got too crowded, he turned on himself in a series of self-deconstruction movies. This inward obsession finally manifested itself in drug-influenced lethargy and obesity.

    Joey and his fellow faux-bros. emerged on the scene as Presley had disappeared into the recursive trap of self-parody. The Ramones took self-parody as one of the four corners of their group persona (along with ’60s garage-rock, Phil Spector-Brill Building pop, and biker leather wear).

    But instead of retreating further into self-referentiality, they started by jokingly depicting themselves as cretins and pinheads, then expanded outward with a hard, fast recapturing of the vital energy that had been sucked out of rock by the post-1960 Presley (and by flower power, Sgt. Pepper, prog rock, soft rock, mullet-head metal, etc.). As Joey allegedly once said, “We wanted to play rock n’ roll, not drum solos.”

    Along the way, they reinvigorated rock, launched (not singlehandedly but almost) the punk revolution, directly and/or indirectly inspired thousands of bands (yes, including many here), and churned out dozens of mini-masterpieces of two-minute, three-chord perfection.

    While Presley turned ever-inward until he died alone, Ramone kept spinning out toward the allegedly-real world. Joey eventually (at least indirectly) renounced the just-kidding aspect of his original schtick with the anti-Reagan song “Bonzo Goes to Bitburg.” In it, the singer who used to sport swastikas on his leather jacket as a cheap anti-PC gag got serious to denounce a president who’d become too forgiving about the real Nazis.

    Also, nowhere in Ramone’s originals or his carefully-chosen cover recordings did he ever pretend to be black. (Ex-bandmate Dee Dee Ramone did, on a misguided rap CD, but that’s another tale.) A strange ’90s book called Hole In Our Soul saw this lack of minstrelism as a renunciation of the whole R&B tradition and, hence, of everything wonderful and heartfelt about America’s cultural heritage. I think that’s bunk. What Joey and his punk pals and proteges did was find themselves enough heart and, yes, soul in the garage-rock heritage, and could express themselves while respecting black music enough to not try to take it over.

    P.S.: The afternoon Ramone died, I happened to be at the Museum of Flight and happened to see U2’s elaborately painted private jet taking off from Boeing Field following their Tacoma Dome gig. U2 would never have had that jet, let alone a career, if it hadn’t been for Ramone–one who, at least publicly, decried the whole material-excess lifestyle and rock-star aesthetic U2 now relishes.

    NEXT: A chant, re: The art of Art Chantry.

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    • We still can’t get the Mercedes Smart Car in the U.S., but sometime next year Americans will get a crack at BMW’s revived version of that classic British microcar, the Mini! (‘Tho the new Mini is actually no smaller than the New Beetle)….
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